Moving On
Thursday, they packed everything up.
Friday, we moved them out.
The house feels so empty. Minus two. I sit here late night, forgetting they aren't about to walk in any moment now. Smiles and how are yous and toothbrushing and goodnights. No Marys in the mornings. No Eugenes in the evenings. I miss them. Terribly. But Differently. And I don't know where I'm going with this. I don't wish they where here. I wish they where there. There is no better place. For them - or us. We'll go onward to new things. Yet the old things circle my head and stay firmly rooted in my heart. I love them. Dearly. The difference between happiness and sadness is sometimes so slight, I get caught in the similarities. Walking the thin line, with both shoes untied. And I still don't know where I'm going.
Oh and, hi diane.
Friday, we moved them out.
The house feels so empty. Minus two. I sit here late night, forgetting they aren't about to walk in any moment now. Smiles and how are yous and toothbrushing and goodnights. No Marys in the mornings. No Eugenes in the evenings. I miss them. Terribly. But Differently. And I don't know where I'm going with this. I don't wish they where here. I wish they where there. There is no better place. For them - or us. We'll go onward to new things. Yet the old things circle my head and stay firmly rooted in my heart. I love them. Dearly. The difference between happiness and sadness is sometimes so slight, I get caught in the similarities. Walking the thin line, with both shoes untied. And I still don't know where I'm going.
Oh and, hi diane.
Same thing Diffrent Time
A lot keeps happening. Keeps me away. This past Saturday we had a big wedding reception for my roomates - who were married months ago far away from here. It was amazing. Part of a park and a clubhouse were rented. People everywhere. Old and new friends. Surprise guests from far away places. Music and BBQ and Laughing. There was so much love. By 5:00pm, everyone was exhausted. Mouths sore from smiling. Tummies full. It was quite a day.
Sunday, AntiPop Consortium. I've seen them twice this year. They hold the top one and two spots. Everything they do is full of energy and creativity. It spreads. The crowd loved it. All around girls were loosing it - for IDMish Electro Ambient(sometimes) Hard to nail down Hip Hop. Afterwards, at the liquor store one block away, people wandered. Exhausted and exhilarated. More love.
Now Mary and Eugene are going to make like married folks, and move out. Whirlwind style. They got a cute little place, cheap. Friday they're moving out. It's only a little walk away, but I'll miss them. I owe them more things than I can ever mention. Then in comes Alyson. Best Friend of a quiet nature. Comfortable. We've shared so many unspoken things. Stuck between us both trying to find time. Now she'll be always around. It would be silly to attempt a guess at the effect, but I wonder. Soon we'll find out.
And tomorrow no work. I've got errands to run. Some music to buy.... and hopefully a bit of sunshine.
I forgot about the house painting. There are so many things. The outside. Due to lead content. The contractors give the appearance of somewhat incompetence. The place is shrouded in makeshift scaffolding and tarps and plastic. There's been lots of noise. Day one started promptly at 8:00am, Sunday morning. From my limited perspective, it would seem little has been accomplished. It may take more than a month. I'm counting the days.
A houeguest of indefinite time and no home or current home town sleeps on the couch. I'm glad to have him. I hope he stays for a bit.
I'm sure there's more, but I know there's sleep. I'm going with the latter... Good Night.
Sunday, AntiPop Consortium. I've seen them twice this year. They hold the top one and two spots. Everything they do is full of energy and creativity. It spreads. The crowd loved it. All around girls were loosing it - for IDMish Electro Ambient(sometimes) Hard to nail down Hip Hop. Afterwards, at the liquor store one block away, people wandered. Exhausted and exhilarated. More love.
Now Mary and Eugene are going to make like married folks, and move out. Whirlwind style. They got a cute little place, cheap. Friday they're moving out. It's only a little walk away, but I'll miss them. I owe them more things than I can ever mention. Then in comes Alyson. Best Friend of a quiet nature. Comfortable. We've shared so many unspoken things. Stuck between us both trying to find time. Now she'll be always around. It would be silly to attempt a guess at the effect, but I wonder. Soon we'll find out.
And tomorrow no work. I've got errands to run. Some music to buy.... and hopefully a bit of sunshine.
I forgot about the house painting. There are so many things. The outside. Due to lead content. The contractors give the appearance of somewhat incompetence. The place is shrouded in makeshift scaffolding and tarps and plastic. There's been lots of noise. Day one started promptly at 8:00am, Sunday morning. From my limited perspective, it would seem little has been accomplished. It may take more than a month. I'm counting the days.
A houeguest of indefinite time and no home or current home town sleeps on the couch. I'm glad to have him. I hope he stays for a bit.
I'm sure there's more, but I know there's sleep. I'm going with the latter... Good Night.
And This Is How It Went
My week in St. Louis was intense. As expected. Looking after folks and watching a woman die would have been more than enough. My family fighting for lack of finding something bigger than themselves in it all, pushed it beyond my limits.
Not that it was all bad. I spent some quality time with my dad and little brother. Saw some family and folks I haven't seen in years... And added to the growing list of lessons learned unspoken.
Now I'm home. Finally rested. Or mostly so. Back to sunshine and big blue skies. Back to growing friends and smiling faces. Muni buses and corner stores. Oceans and fog. Back to not enough time. E-Mail's unanswered. Kinkos continuing absurdity.
This is still my preferred place to be.
Not that it was all bad. I spent some quality time with my dad and little brother. Saw some family and folks I haven't seen in years... And added to the growing list of lessons learned unspoken.
Now I'm home. Finally rested. Or mostly so. Back to sunshine and big blue skies. Back to growing friends and smiling faces. Muni buses and corner stores. Oceans and fog. Back to not enough time. E-Mail's unanswered. Kinkos continuing absurdity.
This is still my preferred place to be.
URL Change
Due to the previously mentioned black market style price hike on .co.il domains... this site now resides at a new one. jason.similarselection.org. Please update your bookmarks. The old site will be gone on April 14th.
I Don't Like Isreal
I just went over to
register.com, to renew benevolent.co.il. The only option is 2 years, at $225. I can't pay that. I wouldn't even if I could. I bought the name for no more than $50. That's a serious price increase. And a not so ethical one at that. Hrmmph.
Juicer
While I was gone, my roomate bought a juicer.
I just had some tomatoe/apple/garlic juice.
Deeeeelicous!
I just had some tomatoe/apple/garlic juice.
Deeeeelicous!
